Immigrant in the Land of Dreams
One evening, I was lost in my thoughts. As always. Then I realised and I told myself:
If you want to build a new life, you must first let go of your old ideas. Otherwise, you could find yourself in the position of an illegal immigrant in your new life, constantly anxious about being deported at any moment.
While people dream of a new life, what they actually want is a new identity. They want to change, but they don’t know how or where to start. By ‘people’, I mean myself, you and them too. All of us.
At the beginning of my mental transformation journey, I realised that I was escaping the constraints of my former self. Whenever they appear in a dream or memory, or even in the form of an old gift, I feel as though I have been caught in a raid.
Would I be so afraid if I had a residence permit for my new dreams?
Would I run away from sleep because I was afraid of nightmares?
Would I worry that they would catch me and expel me from the borders of my new life?
As long as feelings of worthlessness, fear, insecurity and pessimism remain hidden in the depths of my personality, how can I live this new chapter of my life freely and happily?
Clearly, immigrants must meet certain conditions to settle in a foreign country. They wouldn’t even accept me as a refugee, saying: “First of all, you must love yourself, recognise your own worth, learn not to pay attention to others, be optimistic, embrace change, and maintain a positive outlook on life. Once you have met these criteria, you can apply for residency and start living a better life.”
Like all fearful dreamers, under these circumstances I could be sent back on the first available flight without my luggage being returned to me. I’d be back in the middle of my old life in a flash. If I don’t want to go back, I have to change my inner self and my perspective.
Because this is actually a matter of mentality.
It’s not a bad thing at all. Similar to visa standards in developed countries, it’s a way of creating your higher self with confidence, worthiness, peacefulness, and the joy of life without needing anything.
All I need is to trust and love myself.